As a routine, I'd say: its been a while since i updated my journal... but something special happened to me that made me believe in the magic of Xmas, something that i've never felt before...

It was just a dinner in Mariott hotel with my family and i brought along my dear. It all started quietly as we waited for the dishes to appear one by one. i started by questioning my mum abt some stuff that she mentioned earlier while our family was having lunch... and then.. more topic came up and the four of us, me, my dear, my dad n my mum were discussing about matters regarding our home town Indonesia, our experiences, our family matters in general and of course, education... even as i have been telling her that i'd want to work instead of studying... she still insist on giving me the pleasure to go to the US for further study. obviously i was kinda irked by that repeated statement... especially when she mentioned it clearly in front of my dear...

then it all began, my mum asked my dear whether or not my dear has any plan for further studying in the states. my dear said, yes. but unfortunately.. due to financial difficulty in her family, the plan was being put aside. hearing so, my mum asked IF there is someone who'd like to sponsor the education fee, would she go? she readily said yes. from that moment, a few things crossed my mind within splits of second. knowing my mum, she is one who'd like to help ppl esp young children who's unable to pursue education n such. so at that split second, i could already guessed that she'd offer my dear a rare opportunity to further study with me in the states. but at another split second, i thought that my mum was just testing cos i also know that my mum likes to test me n my brother. so i immediately put aside the thoughts of her sponsoring my dear. UNTIL my mum opened her mouth and asked if my dear would go with me if MY MUM sponsors both our fees. man, both me n my dear got a shock. but at the same time, we were speechles, and i almost shed tears. my mum keeps telling my dear to give it some thoughts n discuss it with her family. she also repeatedly says that she is serious with this.

but... both my dear n i thought that our parents should meet up and discuss if her parents agree to let their only daughter go...

and i pray for that day to come...